Really

 Its been 7 years, well maybe my friend was right I have 7 years of good luck then 7 years of bad and if this is the next 7 of bad I will really slit my throat.

Sure, as a man we all know women are the worst thing on the planet.

They really don't give a shit about anything other than themselves and will do anything including killing their own kids for whatever they think it best.

I have been in a good place for a while, just doing what I enjoy working, going home cooking watching my TV shows, the old stuff to keep me grounded to when things where really good and simple.

But it is all going to come to an end soon I know it. At 59 maybe its time to check out, but at least it will not be at the hands of a Canadian doctor who will get paid for talking me into ended it all, you know depression, its something that can't be fixed take the needle instead its easier.

Where I am now, it will be a problem and sadly it will hurt a lot of people, and I am not sure how to leave something that will make it easier for them to understand.

Sometimes there is just no way out, and talking to people, well there is no one to talk to, never really was.

I'd sell myself into slavery if I could. Seriously all I want is a job, I have one, a home I have one but the landlord is a thief, but I have to accept that, and I have a cat that I love who loves me.

I have a TV a laptop that works.

I can buy food and I can cook it.

That is all I want. If I had to work 10 hours a day, that would leave me with like 4 hours on my own to do my stuff while I sleep. That would be perfect.

Can anyone offer me that?