Healthy Sunday

So its a Sunday and I have been doing some writing and some work and some stuff and the fact that I am busy really helps, its good to have a routine but it is bad not to have any friends to spend time with.

Friday - Being Busy Helps so much

Mental Health is helped by being busy, when you don't have time to think or do anything then you have no problems but when you are given time to think and wonder you just get worse and worse and you sink into depression, while I hate what I am doing, I can force myself to deal with it, as I simply say I have no choice.

The idea that talking about it helps is the biggest load of BS that anyone can ever spout, aside from any Politician, who generally grow mushrooms for a living.

You don't get any help when you talk about it, and when you talk about it you are thinking about it, and that can only make you more depressed, because you will never get any answers you will only get more questions and more questions is not what a depressed person needs, a depressed person needs answers, because that means less to think about, the less you have to think about, the better off you are.

You really don't need someone asking you, so why do you think that is.....

If you knew why, you wouldn't think about it would you?

I feel that no one likes me. Why do you think that is?

Seriously, has anyone ever been helped by that questions?

Mental Health Poutine Day

So its a Holiday here, they open the Schools on a Sunday, gotta love that, Saturday guess what you are teaching is a school, and tomorrow you need to be at the opening ceremonies,

It is accepted here that you don’t organize anything, and that you don’t tell anyone anything and its all last minute but if no one shows up its al good.

Its like being is East Berlin, nothing has changed this country is the socialists paradise it really is, they play at being free and doing things, but really the control that people have is nothing because those in power are doing things the same way they did 30 years ago.

Mental Health – Fridays

It really should be a good day, its Friday, and I think I will book a hotel for 3 nights and just have a few days to myself and enjoy whatever it is that I can enjoy, plus it is the big game today and I want to find a place to watch the game.

No matter what happens in the game it should be a laugh.

Mental Health – Pointless Mondays

Yes, its Monday and really I should be expecting some details about a meeting at a university, but in this country that could mean anything anytime and any place because actually doing something you say you are going to do, well, even….

At least this week I hope to pay the immigration fine and then I think I will take the Sept flight and get out of here, its just not doing me any good.

I have never ever been in a place that is so hurry up and wait and in place where it is expected that everyone else does everything for you and then you simply ask them for money because even when you did the work, it was them that had really been put upon.

Mental Health – Sunday A good day

Today has a good feeling about it, I am actually feeling good, today I bumped into a someone I met a few months ago and we had a good chat over breakfast and now I am having a coffee and writing away and I might even get into writing my book again.

Things are feeling ok, tomorrow I see the university, and I really want to push on the idea that I want to be able to do the work in my own time, I don’t mind paying the full wack, but I want some special treatment from them, if they really want the 3 years then I really  need to think about it, while I know it is cheap, but that puts me at 55 and I really need a way of making some money, at the moment that is the biggest thing on my mind, I need to start to build up some money, I want to go to Thailand I want to live there and be happy, and not alone anymore.